A.L.I.E.N. LIVING: "Cornered by Corona: Seeing Is NOT Believing"
Cornered by Corona PT.2: SEEING IS NOT ALWAYS BELIEVING
Good Day A.L.I.E.N.s!! I hope life is treating you well. I hope that you are treating you well. As I am sitting here in my apartment everyday now with no gig or performances to distract me. No meetings or practices. I am left to my own vices. In this time I have come to realize something, Seeing Is NOT always believing. Not why do I say that? Well as an adult I have always depended on what I saw to tell me if something is true or not. Raise your hand if it’s the same for you? But I realize that I am not always going to see something that I am believing for immediately. I am realizing that just because something doesn’t happen right away, that doesn’t mean it won’t happen. It is just being delayed. Example, since Corona hit items like bleach and rubbing alcohol have become commodities. Like I have never gone in my life to the store and not been able to find those two items. But with the Coronavirus, the shelves have been sparse. Last month, I had been running low on these two items and no matter what store I went to, no matter whether it was South, North, East or West… nothing. I couldn’t even buy alcohol wipes. I had a small bottle of bleach and half a bottle of alcohol, but I knew that would not last long for me. One day I talking to an associate at Walmart about it and the woman said “well we open at 7am every day and close early, so if you can get here at 7am you may have a chance of finding something.” Now, me working from home, I have found a comfort in my bed in the mornings I never had before, so I was a bit reluctant, ya know. Then two weeks ago, a week after speaking to the nice associate, I was up at 6:30am playing my guitar, when my Spirit spoke to me, saying “go to Walmart, now to get some bleach”. At first I hesitated, thinking “if I go to this place and there’s nothing??..” but after a few seconds I jumped up and went. Of course there was hardly anyone there because just like me people are like “why the heck would I be in Walmart at 7am”. Anyway.. I digress. I get my cart and go down the laundry aisle where the bleach is normally shelved. I creep down the aisle as if I am in a Freddy Kruger movie, trying not to get sliced and diced. I’m walking slowing praying Lord let there be at least one for me. As I approach the bleach from the angle I was at the shelves were empty. Sigh Jesus!! So, I proceed forward when I see two gallon sized containers of bleach!!! You would’ve thought I had one the lottery.. and I did considering the times we are in. And if you were raised in church, I did the dance people I was like HALLEEEELLUUUJAH!!! I started patting myself on the back for being obedient to the Spirit and trusting Him!! My next task was to find alcohol, but I found none. So again I was on the search for alcohol for weeks. Then finally two weeks after finding the bleach I found the alcohol. I had pretty much given up on finding it really. I figured I still have some in my old bottle so I will just go with that for now. Then I went to the store at 7am again to return an item and as I was walking by the section they keep the alcohol, I thought let me check… and there it was!! Not 1 but like 10 bottles. I picked up two and purchased them.
So what does all of that have to do with seeing is not believing, well, how many of us have dreams, aspirations, plans, visions for our lives? How many of us have created vision boards to manifest those things? *Raises hands* well I have. I have three vision boards right now because I want and see so much for myself and those around me. I use to keep the vision board next to my bed so I wouldn’t forget, but then a good friend, Damien Lamar gave me some advice that he got from Oprah where she stated, “Once you create the vision board, put it away and don’t think about it again. At that point the universe is at work and those things will manifest in due time”. When he stated that to me it reminded me of the scripture in Habakkuk 2:2-3 “2 And the Lord answered me: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it.3 For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” What is this saying? It is saying that the vision that God has for me, for you that He implanted in us is not dead. It is steadily working itself through the process of our lives and that there is an appointed time for that vision to manifest and the timing has everything to do with our ability to wait to see it through. Waiting doesn’t mean you are just sitting home chilling. It means in the meantime/between times we are doing whatever the spirt, not our fear and anxiety, but our spirit based in love and patience is telling us to do. Like with the alcohol and bleach. I knew they were out there, I knew the day would come when I would find them, I just didn’t know when. I couldn’t predict it, but when the moment was right I took it. I was ready. Right now, I can’t physically see millions of people streaming my music and I am not currently on a world tour, however, in the spirit, in the unseen these visions are working their way through my process. My” waiting” for it is writing, mediating, finding the proper eating regimen that will work for me and exercise so that I can have the stamina for it all. If we rush a process, it won’t last and then we will be living a false reality, but if we wait and trust for that which we can’t see, the moment when it comes we will understand what the process is for.
I have realized that I can be a skeptic more than an optimist. So, right now I am working on my faith. Working on trusting my current process. Although things are not exactly how I want them they are how they should be, so I will choose to be content in it.
I pray that is helps someone. See is not always believing. Trusting God with your process. Understanding that you have not been forgotten, but that everything is working together in the background for your good. Faith is not just given to us. We have to choose it every day!!
Have a great Week!!
Megan